Well, it is exactly two days, fourty-eight hours, before I leave. I woke up early and can't seem to move from this spot. There are so many feelings stirring and brewing inside of me.
scared
anxious
excited
lonely
stressed
overwhelmed
uncertain
Saying good-bye to everyone in the last month has only brought me to tears once. That was yesterday, saying bye to Grandma Gadsby. But perhaps that sample is biased as the whole day was just awful.
Uncle Jim died. Hardest funeral of my life.
And it is that reason too, that I wish I could be here. For Jillian.
I've known for 5 months that this is what I am supposed to do. But as I get closer, the feelings of sureness are slowly slipping and becoming consumed by feelings of fear. That is to be expected, I guess. On a wedding day, getting cold feed is common.
I'm marrying South Africa.
1 comment:
Hey Kristal,
I have been thinking about you, off on your adventure to save the world, yes, save the world. I think its understandable that you are feeling this way! Just remember we are all just an email or call away. We will be checking in on you and waiting for your return. I will be sure to keep you updated on all events in Lloydminster. Good luck friend!!! I'll miss you!!
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